Dearest Friends,

I regret to inform you all that I have taken down all of my writings and I will no longer be adding new ones to this user name, one of which I had for 6 years. (I can't still remember the drunken night I made it at A's). Perhaps down the line I will create a new user name and come find you all (Note: I am not deleting my acct, I have simply removed everything due to the following reason...).

So, my love and I had to deal with his crazy ex (no, really, she is...it runs in her family and she's on meds...two things which aren't that bad but when you throw in the trail of crazy things she's done...well...WOW). She is obsessed and needs to seek help but instead, she has chosen to find me on here and had begun making rude and immature journal entries. Any writer knows that their writings come from their hearts so there is no way I will have her be able to see my private side. I've blocked her from Facebook, I've denied her on Myspace and yet she has to find me here, in my most personal space, and violate my privacy. She says I'm jealous of her. I am a woman with a womans body...she is a child with bad teeth and a little boys body...with a brain that lacks intelligent ideas. I'd say her actions show SHE is jealous (IE: stalking me...). Hey, at least I've got another fan? haha. He and I have dated longer than they and yet she still can't let him go (they only dated for a few months and even he has stated that he bs'd her A LOT about his feelings to make her feel better).

After speaking with friends, my boyfriend, my parents, our family lawyer and the police, we've decided to document any and all activity she does that pertains to harassing me and/or my boyfriend and friends. We are all willing to testify. She has even dyed her hair my color. It's freaking creepy. And funny, she's one of those types on here that doesn't realize this site is for art and instead, posts pictures of herself like the snaggle tooth whore she is. She recently got a DUI (hilarious, my boyfriend called me when it happened) and so this would not be a good thing for her. I've obtained her mom's phone number and am pretty sure I'll be contacting her soon so that perhaps she can get her daughter the help she needs so I don't have to involve the police and file internet harassment and slander charges.

She claims she cares about my boyfriend and yet she continues to stalk/harass me (and since he loves me, that is insulting him by doing so), say bad things about him (as in she insults his intelligence and maturity when she insists that it MUST be ME that is the reason he doesn't talk to her). In all honesty, HE chose to stop talking to her because he always thought she was hit, dumb and crazy and he tried to love her but just couldn't. Then he met me...and he doesn't want her in our lives because she's unnecessary drama and a waste of human flesh. I agree. He chose, he's growing and maturing into an amazing man...he always was one but he just shines more and more each day, as do I. I blocked her from FB and Myspace because I've been down the road with a crazy ex in the past and she also took things too far...my friends and I all "joke" around that I'll wake up with this ex and a knife in my face...lol? It might sound "funny" but we are only all half joking...we ALL firmly believe she should be committed. What she has done on this site shows that she doesn't just step over the line, she leaps over it. She has problems and as my father said about her "you can't trust a crazy immature brat like her...I'll see what I can do to make sure R (my dads old coworker...my dad is retired law enforcement) looks into this".

She has this ideal in her head, I think, that he will eventually "see the light" and come back to her. The thing about that is that we spend every moment together and we are each others light...we won't be breaking up and even if we ever did he would NEVER get back with her...he can't stand her (nor can most others). We share everything with one another...including things she writes (he shows me, I don't read his things) and wow, she has two-three personalities. Skiiiizzzzoooo just like who, her aunt or something, I believe. She's already like her and only 22.

So, sorry all, I'm off but I'll still be around to throw in ideas and read new material. On brighter news, life is amazing. I wake up everyday to an amazing man...he stays at my apartment about 3 times a week and I at his the rest as his morning hours are a lot earlier than mine so it makes more sense. We are talking about a trip here soon. My parent's are in great health and are having lots of fun fixing up their new cabin. We can't wait for next summer...my bf, my best friend and her bf are all going to be spending time up there. Wooohoo!! It's ON the lake so even better! School is going amazing as is work. I'm getting my cat back this week, too. I can't complain! I hear compliments and love daily and my life is complete and exciting, content and wonderful.

Hugs...especially to you Pointless...I miss you But, we have our other journal so hopefully you'll post again on there, where ya be?? haha